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i miss wz,
i miss bc,
i miss jk,
i miss pw,
i miss xm,
i miss lance,
i miss ma aye,
i miss ct,
i miss wb,
i miss jas,
i miss denny,
i miss rachael,
i miss kelly,
i miss wj,
i miss all my friends,
i miss hanging out,
i miss the gossips,
i miss the fun,
i miss the laughter,
i miss the joy,
i miss the nonsence,
i miss everything
i hate the holidays when i cannot enjoy it with all my firends.

what is the point of having holidays if i have to stay at home to study? (something which i'm not going to do now or later)
what is the point of having a television is almost evey room when there are no decent shows to watch in the afternoon?
what is the point of having a computer when i'm not allowed to play it all day?
what is the point of having msn messenger when the person i want to talk to is not replying me?
what is the point of having friends when none of them is around to accompany you when you are bored?
what is the point of getting good results when you don't really use what you have learnt in school in your work?
what is the point of missing someone if the person does not miss you back?
what is the point of having others praising you, when you yourself know that it's not true?
what is the point of living when you have to die sooner or later?

birthdays and funerals do not go together..
it will be a 'sweet' 16th birthday for me,
while lookin at my greatgrand mother's dead body..

eng 54%  C6
chi B 61%  B4
e maths 57.5%  C5
a maths 27%  F9
phy 58.5%  C5
chem 69%  B3
combines humanities 61%  B4

sucky results..

L1R4 23 points
shitty stuff

okie, i'm finally blogging again, after much pestering.. today, lance, bern n i went to beach rd to get jiun's present. his bdae is tml.. we chose 5 boxers for him, 1 for each sch day.. he better like them and i'm gonna check if he wears it anot.. lol. afta tt, we walked accross the rd to golden mile. i thought it was a shopping centre where i can buy sth nice or wad.. but the building did nt even look like a shopping centre at all.. when we stepped in, it was a totally different world inside. it was like being in thailand. we all felt rather insecure and weird there. every1 ard was speaking thai. the things sold there were all frm thailand. the words, atmosphere, everyting.. we walked and spotted some naughty guy's underwear. tts was wad lance called it. to me, it looked disgusting. you could see the pubic hair sticking out of the part which held de cock.. eww!! disgusting.. lance even wanted to buy it for jiun.. yucks! he then took a pic of some designs and we left to look for drinks, some alchocalic stuff.. lance wanted to try his luck to buy the drinks.. we went to this shop, the shopkeeper was frm thailand, as i said, everything was frm dere, including the hairdresers and food. lance took a bottle of bacari breazer (can't spell) and went to ask if we cold buy it. the woman was quite uncertain bout it as we were in uniform so she asked how old he was. lance is '18'.. tts wad he said.. it was daring.. (he dosen't look 18.. lol) we quickly left after tt.. took 100 to habour where we looked for justine's persent for jiun (we're helping him to get it) and sue's bdae persent. hers is on the 18th. after getting the persents, we left for lance's hse.. bern is brrowing some love hina comics frm him.. wwe went to lance's condo.. its up on a hill.. stress ar, walk up dere. reach condo, still need to walk up so many steps.. we went to the swimming pool to wrap presents.. then, it was time to go hm. i forced bern to take 183 home, so lance lead the way to the bus stop. it was rather far but jus continue walking.. lance n bern were complaining..dey so weak! haha. when we reached the bus stop, lance folded up his pants and said tt dere were many mosquitos, so irritating.. so he took off his slipper and started wacking them. he forgot tt they won;t 'attack' him if he unfolded his pants.. -.- so bus came, and bern n 1 went home..

xm used to tell mi, hannah, go find a bf..
some1 who will pamper u, care for u n love u
i cannot be dere to look after u forever.
when i gt him, i was happy..
but guess tings wear off as fast as dey start
i don't feel de care any longer..
as for pamper, tts secondary, but i need it too..
now, when i need him to comfort me when i'm down he is not dere..
when i want some1 to accompany me when i'm lonely, he's nt dere
when i need some encouragement, i don't have it.
instead, when i go look for him, he treats me lyk i'm invisible
if others insult me, i've gt nth to say..
but when he does it, its lyk a knife stabbing into my chest.
he does nt know how much hurt he has caused me
sometimes even thinking tt it is fun..
to hav some1 being swt to u, treating u as if u are his world is just an imagination
now, i jus want him to treat me better.
so tt i can feel that he still loves me, jus lyk i love him.
i don't think i can put up wif de ill treatment anymore.
wad should i do?

oh damnit, damnit damnit!!!!!
i feel so damn flat..
n u noe y i feel flat?
cuz I AM flat..
=( its not fair...
i feel so dumb lyk dis..
how to make it bigger?
y won't it grow??
i dun wanna stuff tissue lar!!
help..
its gettin on my nerves...
cuz i'm flat,
tts y so mani clothes cannot wear..
cuz if wear, nt nice..
n my tummy is gettin fat!!

argh i better exercise NOW

today got scouts investiture...
he said he wanted to come at 8.30 to wait 4 mi,
but i say, wait for so long for wad?
come afta de investiture lor...
so he came afta de invertiture...
met us at mac,
den he ran off to find jie jie dey all, play dota -.-
afta we tok tok at mac,
den walk ard ginza 4 awhile,
boonie wanna go hm le...
so i went to aloha to kind him lor...
he complain my shorts too short -.-
didn't tink he would mind... lol
wanted to wait for him..
but dey haven even started playin!
den i sian diao...
den dun wanna wait le...
so i go hm 1st lor...
afta he play finish, he came to my hse downstairs to find mi,
but dis piggy me was too tired to get out frm bed
n i didn't noe how to tell mummy i wanna get out,
so i ask him go hm lor...
poor him... hehe
but veri happy he came down to find me.. =D
i slept for 5 hrs ar...
veri tired... now face red as lobster...
lata skin peel again...

both parties will get hurt in a relationship...
wifout knowing, while i tried to protect myself,
i ended up hurting him more...
wad am i suposed to do?